The Life & Death Of Fida

Las Friday was the last day of exam n skul 4 dis sem 1…puff…finally , i can get a break 4m all the hard work that i’ve done for the last 2 weeks…i fully deserved a long hols…hehe…in the evening , i had a football match with all my long loss frens…hehe…it was like the 5S1 of 2004 against U6A4 of 2006.haha…wat a great game…i did play well in that game…i played as a central midfielder…i did create chances 4 my team but unfortunately i did not score any goal…n my team lose 3-4.however , we did play well.who was in my team ? nyantong , arne , andy , fletcher , jackson , gary , me , azi , my bro , sperico n lenet.hhmm..we’re planin 2 have our 2nd match…wat else?today , i went 4 my cousin’s bday party at my uncle’s house…he just lived near by…my couz turned 3 years old today…the best thing bout the bday was the bday cake…it was a Barbie cake…it was beautifully decorated…the cake is the Barbie’s gown actually…so creative…i guess that’s all 4 now…btw , i wud like 2 say congrats 2 the friendster team 4 bringing a new luk 2 frenster…ciaoz…

If a girl likes you (boy) …

• she will laugh at all your jokes
• she’ll stare at you with a smile on her face
• she’ll ask you who you like , continuously
• she might try to make you jealous
• she’ll beg that you do everything for her
• she might start talking to your friends
• she’ll talk to you about the different varieties of guys
• she’ll always seem to be talking about how nice you are
• she’ll always ask what to do in a bad situation
• she’ll always be flirting with every other guy except you

If a boy likes you (girl) …

• the guy will try to make you laugh
• he’ll flirt with you while he can
• he might try to show off around you
• he’ll help you out , if you ask for it
• he’ll stick up for you when you need it most
• he’ll be friendly to you and all your friends
• he might make fun of you , in a joking way
• he’ll tell you that you did good , even if you did horrible
• he’ll make eye contact with a happy grin on his face

For the last 3 days , i barely had enough sleep…i slept for less than 3 hours bcoz i had 2 finish my revisions…FUCK…there r lots of things 2 be covered n remembered in a short period of time…how can i deal wif it ? sumtimes , i feel like quiting n let my results drop…i never thought dat studyin can be this exhausted…in fact , i felt tired n sleepy rite now…can’t wait 2 fin my semester test n njoy my hols after dat…i’ve planned things to do for my 2 weeks hols…i wil try to njoy as much as i can…espc to release stress aft the tests…since i’m brain dead rite now and due to my sleepiness , i hv 2 go…the saga continues on the next edition of my blog…hehe…if u want to share ur thoughts / opinions / problems / feelings / stories on how stressful u r on studyin , pliz holla back !

P/S : sori for the lameness of my blog dis time…

Good article…so don’t ask why someone loves you…

    one day a gal asked:
    why do you like me..?
    why do you love me..?

    HE answered:
    i can’t tell the reason.. but i really
    like you..

    SHE: you can’t even tell me the
    reason.. how can you say you like me?
    how can you say you love me?

    HE: i really don’t know the reason, but i
    can prove that i love you.

    SHE: proof? no! i want you to tell me
    the reason. my friend’s boyfriend can tell
    her why he loves her but not you!

    HE: ok..ok!! ermmss..
    because you are beautiful,
    because your voice is sweet,
    because you are caring,
    because you are loving,
    because you are thoughtful,
    because of your smile,
    because of your every movements.

    the gal felt very satisfied with his
    answer.

    unfortunately, a few days later, the gal
    met with an accident and became
    comma. HE then placed a letter by
    her side, and here is the content:

    darling,

    because of your sweet voice that I love
    you…

    now can you talk? no! therefore i cannot
    love you.

    because of your care and concern that i
    like you..

    now that you cannot show them,
    therefore i cannot love you.

    because of your smile,

    because of your every movements that i
    love you..

    now can you smile? now can you move?

    no, therefore i cannot love you…

    if love needs a reason, like now, there is
    no reason for me to love you anymore.

    do love need a reason? NO!

    therefore, i still love you…

    and love doesn’t need a reason

    "sometimes the best and the most
    beautiful things in the world cannot be
    seen, cannot be touched, but can be felt
    in the heart"

    love doesn’t need a reason… its something
    you can feel burning inside your heart and
    waiting to be explode of love…

    please.. never ever ask someone why do
    they love u.. love is nature and without
    love the world is nothing but a piece of
    crap.. so everyone love the world and
    also love ur loved ones…

12/5/06 - I went 2 Sharon Esther’s b’day party around 7.30 pm.around 9.30 i went to barz!ng wif sum frens 2 hv a drink.i drank screwdriver ( mixture of vodka n orange juice ).it tasted bad…on d way back , i met lim n ah siong at point one…haha…wat a coincidence…they wanted me to join them clubbin but i refused…i’m tired at that time…hv no mood for clubbin…

13/5/06 - in the aft , i went to pick zellabella at her house 2 go to d pustaka…since i dun noe her house , i ventured for 30 minutes at the Siol Kandis area alone to find her house…i never thought that the area wud be so big…finally , wif d help from my couz , Alda , who juz lived nearby , showed me d directions…i did managed to find her house…haha…well , i guess , since i knew where she lived , i can go to her house durin hari raya…hehe…n mayb anytime i wan…so beware…wakaka…juz kiddin…wen i’m at pustaka , i met saddam n azizi studyin…hehe…can’t believed that they’re so harworking…haha…at nite , i went 2 my grandma’s house 4 my uncle’s bday party…there r lots of food…n the food is delicious as well…

That is wat happened 2 me 4 d las 2 days of my life…2day , nothin 2 do besides goin 4 tuition…how boring…hopin that 2mrw wil be a great day ( lower 6 is comin to skul )…hehe…it’s gud 2 get 2 noe more people…GRACIAS !

The day starts with school…it’s boring as usual…n den it comes 2 d exciting yet unexpected part of all…suddenly out from the blue moon , i saw 2 of my bes frens ( andy & gary ) in front of my class.while i was waitin 4 my bro 2 finish his meetin , i suddenly saw the 2 of them in front of my class…they r also shocked 2 see me…haha…the weird part is that when i asked them wat r they doin here n they replied by saying dat they’re lukin 4 me…they said dat they had d feeling dat they r goin 4 find me in sch…i guess dat’s d instinct of real frens…hehe…later , we decided 2 chill at point one @ ban hock…there , we had a really long chat…we shared our infos n views on matters dat we dun discuss 4 a long time…it’s been a while since i had a chat wif them…can’t believe dat i’ve missed out so many things oredi…it’s fun 2 hear from d other part of their stories…i guess many incidents can happen in a short period of time dat we dun realised…hehe…neway , to cut it short , i had a blast 2day…hope 2 hang out wif my other frens in d near future…Adios !

Yesterday , i went 2 skul 4 st.john station games but it got cancelled.it was just a waste of time.FUCK!if i was not in skul dat day , i will not have to witness unwanted things dat happened.it is just like rubbing salt in my wound…aft d st.john been cancelled , i went out to TJ wif my bro n some frens ( Azella , P-lo n Jack) 4 lunch.i wish not to elaborate more bcoz other than dat is history.it’s heartbreaking…and my feelings can be substituted with d lyrics below…

Watched my life pass me by -- in the rearview mirror
Pictures frozen in time -- are becoming clearer
I don't wanna waste another day -- stuck in the shadow of my mistakes -- yeah

(Chorus)

Cause I want you -- and I feel you -- crawling underneath my skin
Like a hunger, like a burnin -- to find a place I've never been
Now I'm broken, and I'm faded -- I'm half the man I thought I would be
But you can have -- what's left of me.

(Verse 2)

I've been dying inside -- little by little
Nowhere to go -- I'm goin outta my mind
An endless circle -- runnin from myself until
You gave me a reason for standing still

(Chorus)

And I want you -- and I feel you -- crawling underneath my skin
Like a hunger, like a burnin -- to find a place I've never been
Now I'm broken, and I'm faded -- I'm half the man I thought I was
But you can have -- what's left of me.

(Hook)

Fallin' faster -- barely breathing
Give me somethin to believe in
Tell me it's not all in my head
*pause*
Take what's left of this man
Make me whole once again

(Chorus)

Cause I want you -- and I feel you -- crawling underneath my skin
A hunger, like a burnin -- to find a place I've never been
Now I'm broken, and I'm faded -- I'm half the man I thought I was
You can have, all that's left, (yeah, yeah, yeah) what's left of me

(Outro)

I've been dying inside you see
I'm goin outta my mind (outta my mind, outta my mind, outta my mind)
I'm just runnin' in circles all the time
Will you take what's left? x3 -- of me
I'm just runnin' in circles in my mind
Will you take what's left? x3 -- of me
Take what's left of me

I wud like 2 take dis opportunity 2 wish all d teachers in my skul ‘THANK YOU VERY MUCH & HEPI TEACHER’S DAY’.2day was my school’s teacher’s day celebration.i was involved in the event bcoz i was the representative from my class 2 give away a gift to a teacher ( Mr.Choo Chin Hoe).the event was a blast and it’s a lot of fun except 4 the speech from the principal n the presiden of the PIBG.BORING!there are lots of performances from the students ( singing,cultural dance show,break dance,choir & choral speaking).my fav was d break dance.it was awesome.they really performed well.2 those who had participated in d event,i wud like 2 say well done.juz dis evening,me and my bro kena saman by the police.dis is becoz we used a one way road.we were pulled over by d police.aft me and my bro had rondeng wif d police,we managed 2 escape wif a warning onli.lucky!hehe.hhhmm…i guess dat’s all 4 dis time.b4 that , i wil end my blog with a wisdom quote from Bill Beattie which is relevant to Teacher’s Day :

The aim of education should be to teach us rather how to think, than what to think - rather to improve our minds, so as to enable us to think for ourselves, than to load the memory with thoughts of other men.

Let me try a new style of introduction this time….hhhmmm…ok…here it goes..

30 April 2006

0000-1030 - Sleeping

1030-1230 - Watchin TV

1230-1330 - Lunch

1330-1630 - Shopping (my mum bought me & my bro an Estee Lauder perfume.the name of the perfume is Pleasures For Men.and my mum bought a shirt 4 my bro.its not fair coz i wan a new shirt too.it SUX ! i got angry actually.

1630-1830 - Doin Homework

1830-2030 - Dinner at Grandma’s House

2030-2230 - Hang out with frenz at Lake Park

2230-2300 - Supper at McD

2300-2500 - Have a drink with frenz at Barz!ng.i ordered a liquor sunrise.hehe.nice taste.SALUTE!

ATTENTION : Dun get me wrong.there’s no such thing as 2500.2500 means 1 o’clock on 1 May 2006.

As of late,i’ve been thinkin of these questions…these questions juz pop off from my head…and i need you to give comments/actions that you’ll take/answers to every situation stated below…the situations have nothin 2 do wif me,but it has sumthin 2 do wif ‘others’…no offense to those who had come across these problems…dun 4get to send in ur comments/answers for each situation…

What would you do if

a)u have a boyfriend/girlfriend who gives you everything you want but at the same time,he/she is cheatin on you with another person?are going to end your relationship or juz act normal?

b)u luv and care about sum1 but u r scared to confess your feelings for dat particular person?

c)the person u say ‘I LOVE YOU’ do not have any response to your confessions?do you still want to wait for him/her or you rather luk 4 sum1 else who will accept your luv?

d)u and ur partner had a conflict and ur partner did not msg or call you for quite sumtime since the incidence?will you make the 1st step(msg/call)him/her or u juz wait him/her msg you first because you think that you deserve better(ego)?

e)u saw a friend (that u luv) is having quality times with a person that you dun know.is it a good idea to approach your friend (that u luv) and tell him/her to make less contact wif that person because you are scared that the person will ‘tackle’ ur friend OR juz let ur friend (that u luv) continue to spend times 2gether because you are afraid that ur friend will say that you dun have the right to tell him/her wat to do since that you’re not his/her boyfriend/girlfriend?if you have any other solutions to this problem,pls send in.

f)you found out that your boyfriend/girlfriend is a former gay/lesbian?wud you still want to be with your partner?

P/S : Send in ur answers as your answers might help those who has the same problems as stated above!